Ultimatum

I've been ignoring and somewhat abandoning my call from Spirit for a while now. I've been dabbling instead of being full on. I'm not sure exactly why. Perhaps some kind of fear, most likely rejection. American culture seems to be overrun by the Christian faith, a faith I no longer follow. Or maybe I fear what people will say or think. Which is something that has been crippling me since I was real young. However, as I'm getting older my "give a damn" gets more broken everyday.
Today while driving Spirit told me "all or nothing. You're either all in or all out. You can't keep riding the fence. Quit wasting time." I take this very seriously because I love all this Spirit stuff and don't want to loose it. I was/am trusted with being a Shaman/Medicine Person/Witch Doctor/Brujo/Conjurer/Healer. I'm aware that there are "differences" with those titles, but they all blend into another. So I combine all of them into one. They are all basically the same thing. I'm supposed to be a Spiritual leader of some sort.
So, as a result, I'm gonna let my inner light shine bright like the Sun. Love again...can't be numb anymore. Show more kindness to all things. Live a more wholesome life.